kids

I love them. I really do. My only 2 little girls in my class are twin girls and I love them to pieces. Honestly, they are so loving. They see me when they are coming from their 3 year old room to my room in the afternoons and they just beam with a big smile and wave and scream my name. Then come the hugs. And the "I love you"s...it melts my heart. There are 2 boys that are the same way. They crack me up with their ways. They want to have a "conversation" with me. One boy tells me about the cow that died and he helped his Dad drag it off. He is hilarious!! The other tells me about trick or treating at church this weekend. They are just so CUTE! Makes my ovaries hurt, I tell ya!!

Today, we had to "break the news" that I won't be their teacher after this week. Mrs. S is coming to be with them everyday. My 2 little girls hugged me tight and said "but why? we want you!" and I explain they will still see me every day at play time(they all play together in the afternoons, 3s and 4s)... I get the "I love you, please stay" and I want to cry. HAH! Attached much? Mrs. S reiterates that I will be around. They still don't want her. LOL! Poor Mrs. S.

I actually would be totally out of a job as of this Friday because the lady I replaced has come back from her medical leave and wants to be full time again. BUT, she knows I am *fingers crossed* waiting to hear back from "the job" and didn't want me to be kicked to the curb. Plus another lady decided she was only going to work mornings. This all opened up time for me to still work there for a few more weeks. In all the changing around, I get shifted to another class :( I know the kids in the other class and it will be ok but I will miss my class I have now. They are all so good and we have a routine. I am thankful, nonetheless! There are some very nice ladies there that are being super kind to me. God has provided when I was sure to be drowning if I was cut loose this Friday!!

When I do leave, I think I will shed a tear or two. I knew when I went there that it was all temporary but little did I know that I would get so attached to some of the kids! I took the job for many reasons....one main reason was a test of my patience and a test to see if I *really* wanted children or not....I do, we do. It's a must. I could have a house full and never stop smiling. I've learned a lot about myself in the past couple of months and the teachers were the 3 and 4 year olds.

hump day ramblings

My Mom revealed to me today that my little brother has hinted that he actually might want to move back to the farm!! I could NOT be happier. HOWEVER, we will see. This place was bought with the intentions of us all living on the land and raising our kids here, together, and watching out for and helping our parents. He moved out here but then decided it was "too far" to drive back and forth to our hometown area. What the real problem was? He was too far away from partying. BUT, now, his girlfriend has graduated from college and is starting a real job in January as a teacher and she wants to get married. So does he, apparently, the ring is picked out. Just a matter of time now. So....it would be an answer to my Mom's prayers! She wants her baby boy back out here, badly. And I miss him, too. I don't see him very often and that's odd for us. We have always been very close.

My head HURTS!!!!!!!!! It will NOT stop!! I am still taking my meds but they seem to be making me worse. I am so dizzy that if I turn my head too fast then I am swirling. It's bad!! I am sick of being SICK!

I am patting myself on the back because even though my head is killing me and I wanted to lay down and be lazy on my day off... I didn't. I cut out 21 skirts, 2 appliques for shirts and applied one, cut out a pillowcase dress and put all that cutesy stuff together... WELL, 1 skirt, 2 shirts, 1 dress, 1 pair of bloomers :) I am pretty proud that I got it all done.. My Mom did come help me cut and measure things out. I would NOT have gotten all that cutting done if she had not been here to help out. Love her!

Have you ever gotten to a point in your marriage when you just look at your spouse and you know, everything is good. I had one of those moments. I don't know how to put it into words but I just love him more and more every day. I have been trying to really tell him that and show him that the past few weeks, and vice versa. Wonder what he wants? He's been really good lately! :) LOL!

Even though we don't have the family we want, YET...we still have each other and the dog :) ... for now, that's all that matters. I have goals for us and we stand to achieve them if things keep on going according to plan, and all that couldn't be achieved without Faith. God is definitely working in us both.

sporadic posting brought to you

By the cell phone! Stupid computer is giving me fits! Posting from the phone is not so easy!

I think I am on the tail end of my awful sinus infection. Yucky crud!

Not much going on around here. I have a list of things I want to sew and another list of things I need to sew. The need to sew list has won! And to top it off, its raining on my day off and that means the hubby will be home any minute. Better get busy before He gets here!

Have I mentioned how bad I am ready for October to be over and thanksgiving to come? I just love the holidays! Food, family, fun! Yea, I am rushing the time but I am ready for time to fly, I am waiting on some things to come to fruition! Woo! Good things!

That's all folks, just some random tidbits.

a new week!

I have a bunch of super cute fabric that just arrived on Friday! Its all for the wholesale order and its fabulous! I will post pictures when I get some things finished!

Friday was interesting. I got the lovely giant Q tip in the nose and down the throat. Yuk! I told the nurse that I now understand why kids hate the doctor! Yea, that's was the first flu and strep test I have ever had!
And I was crying! Ha ha Ha luckily, I only had a severe sinus infection, fluid on both of my ears, and sore throat. I have been resting and sleeping all weekend. I feel better but sound awful and have a cough.

No time to be sick, I have mucho sewing to do!

If you would, say a prayer for my father in law. He has heart problems and is having trouble again. He has all the symptoms of another heart attack is looming. He has an appointment but its Nov. 18! That's 3 weeks! Sheesh!
You would think if a man is saying He is eating nitroglycerin and hurting that the cardiologist would see him sooner! He promised that if it got to be bad that He would go to the ER.
I overheard him telling my mother in law that He was tired. He was hurting and tired of feeling bad all the time. I was suprised He said something. It was unlike him.

I don't know about you guys but I am ready for a new week! I am praying for a positive week and healthy week! Hope you all had a great weekend.

Friday! yay!

I am so glad to see this Friday come! Nothing special, just ready for a weekend with my hubby! He has been out of town all week with work and I just need some "us" time!

I get blood drawn to check my HCG levels. My body has not rejected the pregnancy so I don't know where the numbers will be. I just hope the nurse stays out of my face! I do *still* have raging hormones!

Lots of sewing to do! Plus I am sick, again! Sore throat, head hurts, nose stopped up, 100.3 fever. Yuk! I may be at the regular doctor tomorrow, too. I don't want to be sick all weekend. I hope you all have a beautiful weekend!

Congrats to Mrs. Boyd! So very happy for you two! And the little tot B! I hope its a girl! Ha!

WOW! in so many ways!

I am so excited!!! I got my very first WHOLESALE ORDER!! That's right folks, a wholesale order from little ol me and my little Sew Happy shop on ETSY!!! It's a cute boutique in Oakland, California!! I will be one busy little sewing gal the next week or two (or three but I hope not!!). I still can't believe it. I've been paid and I've ordered the fabric and I am still in shock :) Giddy I tell ya! I have been working this deal for a couple of weeks. They contacted me and we went from there in nailing down the details. WOW! haha That could not have come at a better time. I will show off the things I am making when they are done.

I did good today keeping my anger to a minimum. I had this deep thought about how I am tired of talking about miscarriages and death and loss and grief and infertility. Really!!! I never in my life would have thought that I would be that person that couldn't carry a child full term. I never thought we would suffer this much. I hate that this has defined me and my husband for the past year. I am moving on with things but I am not letting it consume us like it has...or consume me, that is... That is easier said than done.

I have to say that through this one hot mess we are in...I have found I have one friend that I am so truly blessed to have in my life. We both have said that God put us back in each other's life for a reason.. That has rung true the past few weeks. She is a rock and I love her to pieces. I sure hope I get to return the favor to her someday. She is one special person.

All of you have been great friends and prayer warriors and I thank you all so very much. :)

same old song and dance

So I debated what to post. HOW to post it AGAIN. I still don't know how because I am so pissed off beyond rational thinking. I wrote out two pages of my thoughts and don't really want to post them because it is all feelings and ranting. But, here it is in a nut shell. The day one of my best friends was killed, I found out I was possibly pregnant. The line was so faint that I waited to take another test the next week. So last Wednesday, I took another test and it was positive.. My fertility doctor took me in that same day and did blood work. MY HCG numbers were 16.5 and I had to go back on Friday to see where my numbers were. They were at 19. The HCG numbers should have doubled. They didn't and this means I will miscarry again.

Officially, I am still pregnant. Still nauseated. But so very pissed off because I am just waiting on my body to reject our 4th pregnancy. And why am I just so pissed off? BECAUSE it is #4!! I am supposed to be FIXED and I am very obviously not fixed. Because I have waisted yet another year plus a few months with a doctor I have seen twice in person and have had nothing but care from his nurses since then. I have spent money and don't have any answers. I fired him. More because his nurse called me once and really hurt my feelings because I was told that I was being transferred to a specialist in another state because "there is no more tests we can do for you" and I felt rejected by someone who hasn't done a damn thing for me in the first place. HOW DARE HE?! I didn't get a chance to FIRE HIM FIRST! LOL! Anyway, I am just in a very angry place with that Doctor. Then the cold hearted nurse called me back today and just made everything WORSE when she was trying to make it better. I was so angry that I cried when I hung up. I do NOT like to get that angry to the point that I cry. Stupid nurse needs some damn bedside manners. JUST SAYING!

SO, that's it really. I don't even know the name of the place I am being sent to but I have an idea and I like what I read on their website. We'll see. I am so skeptical but do you blame me???

2 weeks ago I interviewed for the best job and I am still waiting for an answer. I did get a phone call from the HR department on Friday and they said it was still available and that they were still working out some administrative issues. LORD I PRAY they get it worked out quickly. I am running out of time at my temporary part time job. I need some good news, bad....I hope this is it!

Right now, our feelings are that we are going to have more testing done and go from there. However, right now I also just want to take a break. A few months of not trying and just having some "fun" might be good for us both.

Decaff please

I haven't got a lot to talk about except that I am tired of the rain!!! And I am ready for the hubby to get back home. I miss him already. I am BORED! Only thing new here is that I am kicking caffeine---cold turkey :) Started tonight and so far so good. I have decaff coffee in the pot ready for me in the morning!! I even bought Columbian so I can psych myself out! LOL!

So here is some more sewing eye candy. I can safely say these "aint yo mama's ruffly toilet seat covers!" Handmade has come a long way and I am SO proud of the beautiful fabrics out there. I just wish our state would get with the program and have a decent fabric store with these designers in stock, all the time!!

I am working on a few new projects and hope to have some photos soon :) But in the meantime, more eye candy below! This first photo is one of my favorite new fabric lines. I just got some of these prints in for Christmas in a pink/lime colorway and they are GORGEOUS! BUT, the blues and greens below are my favorite!! how pretty!

Pay no attention to the men(designers hubby on left and my fabric lady's hubby on the right-hah!) but do look at what they are sitting on!!!! beautiful gray fabric that I am COUNTING DOWN to get my hands on!!! It's a new release and the color is great! Gray is gaining speed as one of my new favorite colors. She has it in ORANGE too! WOOHOO!

Here it is in orange :) I just love orange and so does the hubby so I can get away with throwing in orange here and there in the house!! I see pillows for my couch coming soon.

Pictures from Flickr group/Jona G. Houston Quilt Market 2009!!!

starting over

Well, I think there always comes a time when we all start over again with the blogs. Honestly, I just didn't want to but I had too many folks from facebook reading my blog. AND even though most of you know me, I just didn't want them knowing my business, too.

No time like the present to start over and have a fresh take on things.

Here at Sew Happy and Domesticated...I will be dedicated to bringing some funny stories from my life and our journey to have a family plus some sewing inspiration.

Same old me, just a new space!

How about these beautiful pictures for a start? EVERYTHING is handmade, sewn, etc... From the talented Heather Bailey, one of my favorite fabric designers. I just love it! Can you imagine all that creativity in 2 booth spaces? Watch out Mistletoe Market! Some of them should take notes!!

All photos courtesy of Flickr Group/Houston Quilt Market, by Jona G.